unmedicated

I am thankful
to just bleed ike a giraffe Pages
any animal for that matter
I hate the way you play
hesitant, resistant and forgetful
just because I am gay
you need my play your way
please me like you once did
take control and place your bid
or is it thats it's on tomorrow
then lend me something I can borrow
display display
judge s I am
I stood this time not no fear ran
I will compliment your debts best I can
Infatuated with someone else
Irrelevant how we had felt
Travel, we'll fly away
But you just don't know take me my way
you quietly regret what eats your insides
alone in the dark nowhere to hide
You don't know how to walk out
material storms are all about
bigger than big
where will you dig?
unarmed without light
sirens piercing to fight
ego's sails with no winds
anorexic fish with no fins
sharks in the hood
testing to see if you would
I wrote you
and despise you
my pipe needs scraping
who's for the taking?
paralysis nestling in
quick, dive into a cup of water
the have come to watch our slaughter
when you folded my insides
you committed to reside
with hours of vows again
just keep residing and pretend
pick a dream, not me cat
believe me I'm 
already that
your anything to believe in me
your anything to choose to be free
posted elephants for he to start
each tail pinned plays it's part
jumping concrete roofs
the same hang each with a noose
flies dressed to the nines
splattered dead after they're blind
I returned so long ago
I followed the shape of my shadow
ideas and imaginations first

the egg timer quickens wrong
and my eggs are always cooked long
long story short
the balls in your court
render me ironic
or repeatedly catatonic
some are gorgeous and bionic
others atrocious and tonic 
let the leaves fall as they may
and be as they say
I have been mourned by breakfast mite
adding scorned by a man so say
no interest digest heres
but a list so mine clears
I am not the gives that lives
all to party what gives
I excite myself no pity just grace
to invite the city and race
need I just my strong desires
the type for long for hire
want to swim with clearwater fish
I hate the gyn and class list
ring it sing it
just don't bring it

skin with water droplets present
thin beauty help not and resent
paper cup shoes no laces
still i'll begin lose traces
pick a dream, no not me
what do free from you see?
God dwells in me with me
delicacy in ones movement
hesitantly won improvement
roof dwelling roaches comport and warmly sad
no matter I'll be okayI too survived dooms in mad
your turn back from there
so short ago I care
igloos mount for nothing
I do count for something
take a risk and lay it down
pussy willow branches all around
who's last or first  to ground
no sex for the love in marriage
horses buggies and carriage
so much better non committal
sex is great and con is little
have I ever hidden I was vain
from years of unjust pain?
you always want what you can't have
easy with those dirty rags
I thought I knew a saint
tonight I could only faint
beg someone else for using you
I am an inch away from being through
home is in our imagination
living is in our conversation
goodnight.